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July 31, 2005

Gathered into one

Filed under: Ecclesiology,Personal stuff — Camassia @ 5:18 pm

Moving on (somewhat belatedly) to other happenings on my trip: as Jennifer mentioned we went to a Sunday evening service at Tripp’s church plant, Church of Jesus Christ, Reconciler. It was my first visit to a bona fide house church (well, apartment church, technically speaking), and the congregation of ten was apparently the biggest they’d yet seen.

Reconciler is an ecumenical effort, co-pastored by Tripp, an Episcopal minister, and an Evangelical Covenant pastor. The attendees included a middle-aged man from a nearby Mennonite intentional community, but it was mostly a young, hip group. The EC pastor, with his goatee, black garb and pink-haired wife, accurately embodied his blog address of “priestly goth.” But the attitude of the service was highly liturgical and serious, showing more Episcopalian influence than the low-church origins of two of its pastors might suggest. (The fact that Larry was wearing a clerical collar suggests he has higher-church aspirations, since I’ve never seen an EC pastor wear anything other than street clothes.) Still, there were populist touches: the host was passed around the group rather than administered entirely by the pastor(s), and right after the sermon came a discussion of the sermon, in which Larry’s wife disputed one of Jane’s points.

We used the hymnal from Tripp’s church, North Shore Baptist. I’d never seen a Baptist hymnal before, but it actually included some songs that I knew from the Lutheran church and from PMC. Both Jennifer and I were amused by one difference: the song categories, which normally include functions such as Gathering, Sending, Communion and so on, also had a category called “Invitations/Warnings.” Neither Methodists nor Lutherans would call songs “Warnings,” even when they are.

The idea of healing denominational divisions in this way is interesting, although especially after my visit to the Church of Christ I know that such efforts have only tended to create new factions. I’ve been thinking about ecumenicism a lot lately, in fact, and was needling everybody about it on the trip, and have been needling others since then. (This is what happens when I get a theological fixation.) I have been thinking not so much about the relations between Christianity and other faiths, but how Christian denominations view each other.

Historically speaking, every denomination has viewed itself as the True Church, and other churches as false. But in modern times most moderate-to-liberal Protestants seem to have moved toward a more ecumenical view that all Christian churches (with debatable fringe cases like the Mormons) belong to the Body of Christ. Telford wrote his own version of this here. In fact, it seems fairly common for Protestants to feel offended at the idea that anyone would think them not a Christian. Just today I met a guy at the post-church lunch group who was so perpetually annoyed at the Amish for their exclusivity, and thinking him not a real Christian, that he said he would be happy to get in a barfight with one. (I will leave the unpacking of the multiple ironies of that remark as an exercise for the reader.) My Lutheran pastor, while less crude, was also offended when a Catholic I knew declined to take part in something, since it was self-evident that they “worship the same God.”

But do they? I suppose it depends on how you define God. If you go by a minimal set of propositions, such as the Apostle’s Creed or just “Jesus is Lord,” then I suppose they do worship the same God. But from the beginning of my search probably my greatest preoccupation has been with the character of God, and the impression of God’s character that I get from the different denominations is often very different. So much so, in fact, that I do not think I could follow God as defined by some churches.

So the differences in doctrine don’t (usually) seem to me like airy abstractions detached from Christian life. To the extent that they shed light on God’s character, they are right in the heart of the matter. A few years back I remember a discussion on predestination on Disputations, which I’m not going to try to dig up now, that wound up with somebody asking what difference it all really made. Tom answered something to the effect of, “You become what you love, and if you love the Calvinist God, then you become, for better or worse, a Calvinist.” Graham seems to be making basically the same point here.

Since all most of us know about God is basically what we read and hear about him, it seems inevitable that people form a mental image of him the same way they do a fictional character. And just as you may go to a movie version of a book and find characters realized in ways you never would have thought of, Christians look at each other and see very different impressions of God developed from the same material. So if a Catholic or an Amishman or a Southern Baptist or whatever tells you that you don’t worship the same God as he does, he may be bigoted or self-righteous; or he may just be honest.

It’s here, I think, that the Catholics and the Orthodox have their best case that the church plays a crucial role in conveying the nature of God, and indeed without the church we would never know or care anything about Jesus. Protestants carry the burden of proof in explaining why the traditional magesterium is inadequate — even more so when Protestants themselves can’t agree on the matter.

Wyman Richardson had an interesting series of posts recently on “Baptist Paleo-Orthodoxy”, which is apparently an attempt to connect Baptists to a sort of Christian Great Tradition. It’s in parts one, two, three, four, five, six and seven. Along the way, he acknowledges the difficulty of being passionately attached to some doctrine that has historically been in the minority — in his case believer baptism, but speaking for myself I could add pacifism, as well as a non-Dantean image of the afterlife.

What I’ve been wondering, particularly about myself, is: how much do these attachments stem from a belief that they must be true, and how much from a feeling that you couldn’t bring yourself to worship God if they were not true? This is essentially the difference between the propositional approach and the characterological approach to faith that I described above. The former is more logical, the latter emotional.

As I look at the question of my own baptism, I see that my own faith falls heavily in the latter camp. I am with the Mennonites because I want to follow their God, not because I think they present the most rationally convincing case that God is that way. Hell, if I were being entirely rational I’d still be an agnostic, despite all of Telford’s valiant apologetics. In the circles I hang in propositionalism isn’t particularly admired, but I can also see how a belief in the factuality of things like the Apostle’s Creed makes faith more than wishful thinking. The martyrs, I think, stood not only on their principles but their conviction that ultimate reality was on their side.

This is drifting a ways from ecumenicism, but I think this is lying beneath my growing discomfort with facile ecumenical claims. The responsibility to love one’s neighbor goes beyond the bounds of the Church, so I don’t propose that Christians ought to start burning each other again. I guess I’d just like the churches to take a bit more responsibility for publicly defining the character of God. It seems to me that until there is more agreement on that question, such laudable efforts as Reconciler are doomed to failure.

July 27, 2005

Getting medieval on your ass

Filed under: Personal stuff — Camassia @ 2:40 pm

I’m back at work today, still a bit jet-lagged. Others have been posting about what I’ve been up to, here, here, here and here. It was a fun and fascinating trip, and worth several posts, which I expect I’ll put up here over the next few days.

I notice that both Jennifer and AKMA (who actually does go by that name in 3-D life, even though it always reminds me of those tasty crackers) emphasize the real flesh-and-blood quality of the experience even though it was brought on by the ethereal medium of the Internet. The fact is, I have way more fleshly friends now than I had after three years of living in L.A. and struggling to meet people through the usual social spots. Much of today’s communication technologies, in fact, seem to be counteracting the socially atomizing effects of the technologies that came before them. I’m not sure what the larger implications of that are, but it has certainly made my life a lot more enjoyable.

Actually, two separate events on the trip got me to thinking about the importance and the limitations of modern technology. On Monday Dash, Dwight, Troy and I went to a huge Benedictine monastery in St. Cloud that is working on a new hand-made Bible. The creators are using the same materials as the medieval monks — vellum pages with inks made of lapus lazuli, vermilion and so on. Yet this is not really a nostalgia project, because the pictures are actually quite modern-looking. In the short film describing the project, it was explained that these were simply the best materials to use, especially if you want your Bible to last as long as the medieval ones that still survive. The paper and ink used in books today are designed for cheapness and volume, not beauty and endurance.

St. John’s certainly thinks it’s making history here. During our visit we watched a presentation by an adorably earnest young college student who compared it to the Great Pyramid of Giza, the Sistine Chapel and probably the Great Wall of China. Although his solemnity was a bit dampened by having us taking up the front row. Showing us the picture of the creation of the world, he asked, “What do you think the bird shape in the middle looks like?”

“Dove,” said Dash.
“Raven,” I said.
“Arctic tern,” said Troy.
“Is that a right-hand tern or a left-hand tern?” said Dwight.

Anyway, the other rather premodern element of the book is that, while it basically grew out of the dream of its artistic director to one day hand-write a Bible, it is not a work of one man’s personal vision. There’s a whole group of artists working on it, and their ideas have to pass theological muster with the Benedictines before they go into print. It’s not in the modern paradigm of individual genius, but I thought it came out looking pretty cool.

The other event was when Dash took me back to her home after my weekend in Chicago, and we found that someone had climbed in a window, picked up my empty suitcase, packed it with every piece of electronic equipment he could find, and left by the back door. The burglar had, fortunately, not trashed the house or harmed the cats, but seemed strictly interested in economic gain.

I wonder, though, how much he actually gained for it. Dash’s laptop was four years old, and though she paid handsomely for it I am told (and I believe it) that computers depreciate at around one percent a week, and so after a few years people have to pay to get rid of them. (Some friends joked that they have computers that they’d like to have stolen.) The other electronics were similarly on the verge of obsolescence — my personal CD player that cost all of 35 bucks thanks to mp3 competition, Dash’s dual cassette deck, etc. Yet he left untouched the most valuable thing in the house, Dash’s violin — a family heirloom worth thousands, and prominently displayed on the sideboard. The cop said that fortunately, young thieves often don’t realize what is truly valuable. I wonder, though, if even the young thieves are finding that technology is moving too fast for them. Within my lifetime, home electronics have always been prime burglary targets because they are expensive and portable, and yet thanks to rapid upgrades and cheap Chinese manufacturing, they are rapidly losing that status. There’s something reassuring, in a way, that the handcrafted piece of ancient technology has only increased in value as the new gadgets have decreased. I’m sure the Benedictines would appreciate it.

In any case, Dash had insurance and even an extra suitcase she could give to me, so it was no catastrophe. But it was frightening and disturbing to have one’s home invaded, so I hope you will all keep her in your prayers, as well as the thief, whose situation is probably far more desperate.

July 14, 2005

Preparing for takeoff

Filed under: Blogwatches,Personal stuff — Camassia @ 8:32 am

Remember the discussion we had about my vacation a few months back? Well, ultimately I decided to accept the invitation to Minnesota. On Saturday I’m flying off to stay with Dash, and hang out with Dwight and Troy. The weekend after that I’m going to go to Chicago and crash with Jennifer, and also see Tripp preach. I will return to Los Angeles, and the blog, on July 27.

In the mean time, I’ve had to deal with a million and one things that need taking care of before I go, so I don’t really have the mental bandwidth to spare for substantive posts. So this will be my last for another two weeks. But I will note a few provocative posts that seem relevant to last week’s discussion of problematic fantasy: Hugo on shooting games and football; via Mainstream Baptist, a father explains Why I’m Raising Violent 4-Year-Olds; and Amy Welborn and the gang discuss the theology of The Wizard of Oz.

See you later. And for a few of you, see you soon.

July 12, 2005

Tribulations

Filed under: Personal stuff — Camassia @ 10:08 am

Remember how I said in my last post that I was inundated with poker spam? Well, apparently that was just the tip of the iceberg — there was such a major security breach that our host suspended notfrisco, and Lynn had to add security patches to all our blogs. This also caused the template to revert to the default you see here, which I will get back to its usual floral theme when I get home.

Between that and the London bombings, I’ve been pretty stymied for posts. I want to say something about them, but have been having trouble putting it all together. So I’ll just say for now that my sympathies and prayers are with the Brit-bloggers and all who have been affected.

In better news, Telford told me last Friday that he was heading there because he’s a finalist for the Michael Ramsey Prize. The winner is supposed to be announced today, so I’m keeping my eye out for news. I wonder if he’ll get to schmooze with the Archbishop of Canterbury? If he’s his usual self they’ll be best buds in about 20 minutes…

July 6, 2005

War games

Filed under: Orthopraxis — Camassia @ 9:47 am

I hadn’t done anything for the last few Fourth of July’s. After I moved to L.A. I checked out some local fireworks and parades, but decided the parking and the crowds made it more hassle than it was worth. This year I still didn’t see any fireworks, but heard them popping outside while I was trying to take over Middle-Earth.

I was at a house shared by some Mennonites, see, playing the Lord of the Rings version of Risk. I had never even played regular Risk before, but the game requires four players, and I was available. At church the day before I was talking to a young woman about it who said that she never played Risk either, but left it to her husband and his buddies. “Should Mennonites even be playing that?” she asked. “It’s about war!”

I brought this up with my competitors while we were setting up the game, and was told that it was an outlet. A nice Menno has gotta let off some steam. I’ve been wondering about that. In fact, I was already wondering about it when we saw Star Wars last month. Back when I was in grad school I took a course on the media and children, and this is what they called the “catharsis” theory: if kids enjoy violent entertainment they’ll get it out of their system and be able to go on peacefully the rest of the time. It is, not surprisingly, a popular idea with makers and supporters of violent entertainment. Trouble is, there’s really no evidence to support it. In fact, the various studies we looked at it that course offered a consistent connection between violent entertainment and aggressive behavior.

I don’t think it’s really going to make a difference on these adult Mennonite guys. But it reminded me of a comment A.K.M. Adam made about pacifism:

The pacifist’s opposition to war becomes operative only at the extremity of human behavior — whereas the real work of pacifism takes place day by day. Margaret’s going to argue that Augustinian truthfulness provides a model of how we can envision pacifism as a way of life, inasmuch as Augustine both prohibits deception and discusses how people can live in a world where deception prevails. We noted that our family’s commitment to pacifism has affected our relations with one another, our behavior relative to neighbors and co-workers, our involvement in church and other spheres, much more than it has affected our attitude toward (for instance) the ongoing conquest of Iraq. Someone who says that pacifism is cheap when you don’t actually have to participate in war or face harsh consequences for your refusal, may not have considered sufficiently the cost of trying to live a life characterized by aiming at harmony and cooperation in a culture overwhelmingly defined by competition, rivalry, and conflict. That’s all the more true to the extent that anything we say or do risks supplying the grounds for an accusation from a hostile inquisitor (of whom I find a surprising number).

Pacifism is more than not serving in the army: it’s living as an emissary of peace in exile in a land of contentiousness. When you begin with treating your spouse and children, your neighbors and students in a way governed by the blessing of peace, of course war is unthinkable — but there’s so much more to be done before the question of war even comes up.

They’re challenging words, but true, I think. Even many non-pacifist Christians regard the Sermon on the Mount as guiding personal behavior, even if the state operates under different rules. Just War theory, as Nate explained, is meant to make war exceptional. So where does this put entertainments like Star Wars or Risk?

It actually reminds me of the pornography discussion that was going on last week. One of the constant unresolved arguments about porn — whether between religious people or not — is the exact relation between fantasy and reality. American society generally deals with its decadent tastes in amusement by making a strict division between them. When I used to read women’s magazines, sexual advice articles generally endorsed any fantasy that worked for you, no matter how disturbing or politically incorrent, because hey, it’s just make-believe. People who enjoy violent entertainments hew to the same line.

Certainly there’s often a difference between what people fantasize about, and what they’d actually like to happen. I once knew (slightly) a young woman who had a lot of sadomasochistic fantasies from a young age, including fantasies of being raped. Then in her late teens, she actually was raped. She hated the experience as much as any other rape victim, but this didn’t end her fantasies. In fact, she said afterwards they got even rougher. I can’t begin to disentangle the psychology of this, but obviously, the relation between fantasy and reality was neither simple nor clear.

At the same time, though, we have Jesus telling us that if we even look on someone with lust we’ve committed adultery already. This seemed to me, upon first reading, like an impossible demand (in fact, I recall that one of my first blog discussions with Telford was on that very passage). It does to a lot of other people too, which is why even a lot of Christians ignore it. The woman I described in the last paragraph described herself as a Christian, for instance, and in real life was a faithful wife, but figured her fantasies didn’t count because they weren’t real.

I wonder, though, if the problem here is this whole mentality of “counting.” Like God is up there keeping score, giving merits and demerits as we go along through life. Yet the New Testament seems to reject that legalist approach and emphasize personal transformation, so that the Law is no longer a matter of scorekeeping but “written on your heart.” That is also fairly impossible in this life, at least in a total and permanent way, but it somehow seems more helpful to me than thinking of God playing “gotcha” with every stray thought you have.

But there’s a larger question behind all this: what is fantasy? Modern society seems to assume that we have this ability mainly for our own amusement. Sure, there are important practical ways to apply imagination, in terms of inventing new technologies, creating strategies, and so on. Risk itself emphasizes that type of imagination. But what of a complete narrative, like the epic on which our game of Risk was based?

As it happens, I just read J.R.R. Tolkien’s essay/lecture on the subject, called “On Fairy-Stories.” In it he argues against the general degradation of fantasy in modern culture (he goes on for quite a while about the fact that fairy tales are really for adults), and says that creativity is essential to the human being:

Fantasy can, of course, be carried to excess. It can be ill done. It can be put to evil uses. It may even delude the minds out of which it came. But of what human thing in the fallen world is this not true? … Fantasy remains a human right: we make in our measure and in our derivative mode, because we are made: and not only made, but made in the image and likeness of a Maker.

To think of fantasizing as part of our imago dei is quite different from thinking of it as a way we can mentally do things that don’t count. But Tolkien was speaking of fully realized narratives like his own, which he calls “Sub-creation.” Where does Risk fit into this? Or porn? Or idle daydreams?

I don’t know. (Hey, this blog is called Musings & Searchings, not Definitive Conclusions.) But certainly fantasies have certain effects on their creators and participants. Tolkien identifies the effects of fairy tales as Recovery, Escape and Consolation. Porn’s effect is obvious. What about Risk?

In terms of a mental exercise, Risk is all about strategizing. But another thing playing with these three guys reminded me of is the role that friendly combat plays in male bonding. I mentioned in the comments to the last post how friendly insults, called capping or signifying or various other names, seem to function in male relationships. (My sister said she had a discussion with her female co-workers once about how all their husbands affectionately call their pets things like “shithead.”) The Risk game likewise entailed a fair amount of agreeable trash-talking and smiling threats.

Like all gendered traits, this habit exists in a sort of recessive form in the other sex. My mother and sister and I like to play Scrabble when we’re together, and when I’m with male friends I can “cap” with the best of them. But on some fundamental level I don’t really understand it. I don’t understand why it’s as necessary as it seems to be to a lot of guys. And so I’m reluctant to over-analyze it or pass judgment on it, as part of the male imperial mindset or something. But I wonder where this fits into the idea of Christian transformation. Is this an artifact of the violent world passing away? Or is there something else to it, something redeemable?

(By the way, since this is a post about games, I should warn commenters not to write about poker. I’ve had spam trouble and have set WordPress to nuke any comment that mentions poker-related terms.)

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