I look around searching for something

searching for something that will make me feel whole

I look around, I see their faces

when I go certain places

I see it in their eyes

I see the proof

I see the truth

there is something out there

there is something more

and it has accepted them

 and given them what they need to go on

yet I stand back

scared to go on

afraid that the one who accepted them

will reject me, because I reject me

I know why I feel this way

about the one

I know why im afraid to go on

its because of how I feel about me

I never liked me

I always hated me

im afraid he will to

I look around

I see their faces

I see the glow

it radiates

and I wonder

will he take me

as I am 

this pitiful creature

this mass of ugly flesh

could something so wonderful

really want something so horrible?

Im scared to find out sometimes

yet cautiously I begin to step forward

to learn more

and find out what it is about these people that glow

that makes them want to reach out

to a creature like me

and offer his peace

to a thing like me

that doesn't deserve it

I don't know why they care

I don't know what's out there

I only see their proof

and wish to learn the truth