pain seems to be the only constant in life

 yet the pain I feel I cant identify

 and it just seems to be to much sometimes

 so I escape into the empty voids inside me 

I run off to nowhere I hide 

where I cant hide

 I try to not give myself physical relief

 from the emotional yet it hurts still 

for I used to

and I know it just makes it hurt more

yet even though I know that

 I wish I could cry 

I often want that release I used to give myself

 but the crying never comes never comes

and I refuse to give in to what used to be

all that remains is nothing

 nothing is all that there is

 pain and nothing 

empty and hurting 

all I know anymore 

the two constants I see in my life

 are pain and emptiness

neither that I can identify any longer

I only know them as pain and emptiness

not their origin or why I feel them

just the name

pain filled

empty void

me.