I don't know where im going
I don't know if your leading
I don't know where im looking
I don't know why im looking
I know im still searching 
anymore I know not what for
all I know is there has to be an answer
there has to be something more
is there anyone
anything
that can answer the unanswerable?
Who am I?
Is there anything more than this?
What is life?
Why am I here?
Was I put there to simply suffer?
To be told to not hate myself
yet hate myself more for being told not to?
Is this all that there is?
Is there nothing more?
Why do I feel so empty?
So alone and afraid
nothing is clear anymore
I don't know where to go
I don't know where to turn
I don't know what to do with these questions
 rolling around my head 
I only know if I cant find answers
I may as well give up
yet would death really be better than life?
I don't know I still hold a terrible fear
am I ready for it?
does anything really lie beyond?
If there does am I ready for it?
if there doesn't and we simply disappear
what's the point of out time here?
Yet if there is a heaven or a hell
Im terrified im not prepared to find out what either is like
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I wish I knew what to do
but I don't know