Who is god?
What is love?
I know how to give love
I know how to feel it for others
I know how to say I love you to someone
I know I shy away when someone says it to me
I am not capable of loving myself
I often feel I have god shoved in my face
I often wonder who he really is
I see so many different faces of him
and yet it always comes down to one question
why would this god of love
this god I am supposed to love
I am supposed to fear
fear and love
how can you be afraid of someone and love them?
Yet its not just that
how could any god possibly want anything to do with me?
Why would he want anything to do with me?
Why does anyone want anything to do with me?
Why do people care about me?
I don't know
what is it they see that I don't
I look at me and I hate what I see
they look at me and say they like what they see
two different perspectives
who is right?
I wonder a lot
I am so confused
so lost so empty
I wish I knew where to go
I wish I knew where to turn
I wish I knew why they cared