I wander around
sometimes through crowds
often I pick up the feelings of others
the positive ones I easily ignore
the negative ones I feed off
its so easy to simply hang around others 
and feed off negative feelings
sch as fear or depression 
pain or sorrow
and make it my own
being an empath is not easy
especially when I can not always tell
who what where when how or why the feelings I pick up are there]
yet I pick them up and I feed off of them
the pain and sorrow becomes my own before I know it
I do that automatically anymore
I carry others burdens along with my own 
because I will take all the pain I can get
I deserve it
pain is all I know its all life is
pain is the only thing I can easily recognize
so slam me insult me hurt me I accept it gratefully
though few realize it
I want pain yet not the pain I feel
yet physical pain does not remove the emotional pain
so I pile more emotional pain on myself
why don't ask I don't make sense
my answer is I deserve it 
though you disagree I know
it hurts many to see me like this 
it hurts me to hurt others
more pain to add to the pain
pain the one constant in life